I sit here as an astrologer and psychotherapist trying to balance out this intense fear of what may be coming and how to hold space so there isn’t mass hysteria. I’m not a doomsdayer, as a matter of fact, all the drama drives me crazy. With that said, I don’t really know how to not be concerned about what the doomsdayer’s are saying.
I understand it from an astrological perspective. I feel the intensity building. I read and watch the news and movies that keep predicting the future or providing satire for what we are currently living. You have to be living in a complete bubble or actively not caring about the state of our country and world to not be feeling some type of intensity and anxiety right now.
With Russia and N. Korea joining forces. Covid making another round and those who managed to not get it over the past 3 years, are now getting it. Not to mention the state of our government and all the division in our country and world. Don’t get me wrong, I understand the division. I understand the hate, anger and the desire to destroy things. TRUST me, I get it! I’ve been utilizing all of my therapeutic skills to balance my own intense emotions.
The astrology right now is similar to that of 1776 when the US Constitution was written, does it surprise me that what is happening in our government is happening? No, not at all.
The astrology right now is also similar to that of WWII and the Great Depression. Does is surprise me that we are once again attempting to prevent a nuclear war, civil war and that our economy is taking a nose dive? No, not at all.
So, I sit here feeling a bit hopeless and fearing the worse. Wondering if I should be finding an underground bunker to hide out in for the next 20 years, or not worry about it and just deal with what happens if/when it happens.
I also sit here as a therapist, wondering if there is something I can do to help prevent any of this from happening. I’m only one person. I have no power. I know that what this world needs is love, compassion, connection, joy and peace. Historically this has ended up happening after a major disaster, when everyone has to come together to clean up the wreckage and rebuild. When it comes to natural disasters, I understand this. When it comes to human made disasters, I shake my head and wonder if humans will ever evolve past the need to destroy each other. Supposedly humans are the most intelligent species, yet we consistently find ourselves repeating destructive history and can’t seem to gain any semblance of emotional maturity.
Part of me wants to scream from the rafters and scold everyone like they are unruly teenagers. Though at this point, I have found that most of the teenagers I know and have worked with, are more emotionally mature than the majority of adults. I know that they are all concerned. They talk about it with me. They keep saying to me, “why do adults not listen to us?” My answer “I don’t know kids; I am an adult and I can’t seem to get them to listen to me either”.
I try to get adults to listen. I keep getting “stop worrying, there is nothing you can do about it”. I don’t know how to stop worrying. I’m a 46-year-old woman who has witnessed and experienced the aftermath of at least 6 different wars. I know what it’s like to be on the receiving end of PTSD symptoms from our Veterans. I have several family members who have served in our military and have seen combat. My grandfather fought in the Korean War, my uncle did 4 tours as a Green Beret in Vietnam, and the rest of my family who served during war times deal with survivors’ guilt because they did not see combat. I have several friends who are Veterans, did see combat, and I have witnessed their PTSD as well. I also have my own PTSD from watching what was going on and witnessing what our Veterans go through. My heart still sinks when I think about 9/11 and every year I have at least one day that I’m an emotional wreck. I can’t even think about all the first responders, civilians and the impact that is still having on their families.
Again, I sit here trying to prevent more PTSD for our country and world. I don’t know if anyone else cares about this, I’m sure there has to be. I don’t know who is working on trying to prevent this. I don’t know if I could do anything different or better. I do know, that we are on the brink of mass destruction and I am feeling hopeless; when all I want is mass peace, love and joy.
We are also embarking on another political season, which has created PTSD for me since I was in 7th grade when I began paying attention to what was going on in our world. In 7th grade I began falling in love with law and government. I wanted to be a lawyer or politician, until I would watch the campaigns and how ruthless they were to each other. I find it so interesting that the Democrats blame the Republicans for dividing our country, and the Republicans are blaming the Democrats for the same thing. As a therapist, I understand that when you are pointing your finger at one party, you have 3 pointing back at you. As a citizen, who will not identify with either party at this point, I see how both sides are creating the division. I feel at this point it has to be the citizens who wake up, see that both sides are creating the problem, and boycott both sides. Again, I don’t have all the answers. I do have some, but I also know that they are probably very unrealistic. Hell, I can’t even seem to get my industry to recognize it and start speaking up. Though, I actually think I see that changing! Which does give me some hope, I just hope we aren’t too late.
Back in 2019, when I was beginning my clinical hours, I told one of my supervisors that it was going to be therapists that had to save our country and world. I stand by that statement. We are the ones who have to clean up the emotional and mental destruction that all this has on people. Until our government can recognize that they ALL are part of the problem, we citizens have to step up and make our voices heard. I just don’t know how to do that, at least in a way that doesn’t require a lot of screaming, destruction or threats; and I know that just makes things worse.
Can humanity evolve past the need for war? Can we redirect that anger into more productive and beneficial ways? Can we have a Great Reframe, instead of a repeat of the Great Depression? I guess only time will tell. Much love to all of you reading this. Tell the people you love that you love them. Tell the people you think are awesome, that you think they are awesome. Hug your kids and loved ones. Call your friends. Tell your baristas they are appreciated. I don’t know what the future holds, all I know is I want humanity to know that I do love and care about you all, even if you have been part of the problem. One downside, or maybe it’s a benefit, of being an astrologer and psychotherapist is that I have unconditional understanding of why people are the way they are. I also have the desire to make everyone feel loved and safe. That is my downfall, because not everyone wants that, and I know that I can’t give people something they don’t want.
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